Can someone tell me why? WHY?

As Puan Wong said;
"Everything must have a reason."

Yess .
So,
Everything happens MUST have a reason .

Why ?
Why ?
Why ?
Why ?
Why ?
Why ?

Someone,
Save me .
Pleaseee .
I beg .
I'll hope my head got hit by something or something else .
ANYTHING IT TAKES TO BRING AWAY THAT PAIN,
THAT FEELING THAT MAKES ME SO UNEASY OR NOT MYSELF .
TAKE IT AWAY .
I DON'T WANT IT .
GO AWAY .

Urgh .
Help me .

And,
Why does this happen to me ?
I don't want it .
But it just fights back to myself .
And,
it's bringing me to the dark side .

Help me .
Someone save me .
Take me out from this miserable situation .
I can't stand it anymore .
Sometimes,
I thought I could,
I thought I could stand strong,
But out of a sudden,
I almost broke down .

WHY ?

Yes,
I know it's annoying .
But,
I dont know .

I dont know what I want,
Or what I need .

I mean,
I know what I want,
As in,
Clothes,
blablablablabla .
I mean,
that's not really important .
Tsk,
I want a psp or ndsl to entertain me sometimes .

But,
I dont know what I want,
Or what I need that is really really really important to me,
worth alot to me .

I don't know .
I don't know what am I feeling .

Sometimes,
I can laugh,
Cry,
Be crazy,
Feeling really down,
Sick,
Headache,
Happy,
Smile,
alot of things .

My mood,
can change in an blink of an eye sometimes .

And,
now,
The want I know which makes me really smile is,
seeing my friends .
Really,
It's true .
They will like :
"Lee Ann ! *smiles&waves*"

That's just really nice .
Makes me smile .

And,
thanks alot to them who made me happy at all times .
Really .
I love you, my friends .
It's true .
No matter what .

Yeap,
Sometimes you people come and visit me at my boring duty place .
Make me laugh,smile,retarded .
It's very sweet of you .
(:

You people made me don't feel bored being there .

And,
there's one time,
I was really really confused .
I was sad,
Feeling down,
Suddenly,
I saw you,
You gave me a smile,
And I smiled back at you,
Then, from that moment,
I got happy back,
Smiling .
You made me smile .


Okay,
Sometimes,
I can get really annoying or whatever,
I'm sorry .
I'm sorry .
I was trying to enjoy myself or cheer myself up, making myself to smile .
I can talk realll loud or screamm .
I'm sorry .

My mind was so confused .
I was blabbering to myself about alott of stuffs that makes me so uneasy,
Rachael asked me what was I talking about .
I said I was talking to myself .
Sitting down on the pipe, floor, bench with that quiet moment, peaceful .
It was so nice .
It got destroyed when the CF and Choir singing .

I'm always thinking at all times .
No matter what,
If I have nothing to do,
I'll rest,
Or think .
Both .
Or only think .

I'll post up what happen on Friday, 15 August ;
When I'm in the mood or when I'm really freee .
Or both .

Feel free to call my phone .
Free caller ringtome from Hotlink .
4 Minutes .

And, blogger upgraded some stuffs in here .

Well,
it's just an entertainment after posting out my feelings .

Bye people .
Night .
And,


Happy Holidays !