A day has just passed,

Now it's the 4th of September,
Sometimes,
I think that time passes fast,
Sometimes,
Slowly .
Pretty odd ?

After reading Jeremy's post about something,
So yeah,
I decided to write something like that .
I think it's gonna be a random post eh ?

Sometimes,
I wonder,
What am I doing here ?
Why am I here ?
Am I dreaming or something ?
I actually exist here .

I always have something on my mind .
I keep on thinking everytime .
Different types of things .
If you caught me staring,
No reaction,
Yeah,
That's the time I'm doing that,
Including me resting .
I just like doing that,
It became one of my hobby .

I like to hide everything in my heart,
Yes,
I'm a shy person .
Sometimes,
I'm just scared to say it out,
Maybe something bad is gonna happen .
I'm a scardy cat .
And,
Sometimes,
I like being alone,
Why ? - You asked .
It's because,
I can,
I dont know,
Do things ?
Like thinking .
Or maybe something else .

I like to look up at the sky,
And smile .

Smile,
Smile ?
Hmm .

I always,
Think about alot of stuffs .
Maybe,
Memories,
The past .

I know,
I know people will tell me to look straight,
Don't look back,
Well,
It's my habit .
I like,
Looking back at the past,
Sometimes,
I feel like I'm living in the past,
I'm facing it all over again,
That moment .

I dont know why,
I get cold even know the weather's hot .
I will always shiver in the movies .
Lol ?

Life ?
Sometimes,
I feel like giving up,
But I can't,
Why ?
I have to think about the others,
I'm selfish .

I'm sure that everyone's selfish .
Sometimes,
They do things without thinking about the others,
Just for their own sake .
Sometimes,
They'll just use one person just for something .
Or,
Force people to do things .

I wanna scream out loud,
I wanna complain,
But I couldn't,
Maybe,
I should sacrifice myself .
Just keep quiet,
But actually,
I want it too,
But sometimes I feel like I'm being used,
But if I tell out,
Something bad is going to happen,
That's what I'm scared of .

Just now,
Yes,
I really purposely,
Took a penknife,
I acted like I wanna kill myself,
I just couldn't .
I really purposely did that,
But couldn't really do that .

Teachers,
I think they'll never show out their true feelings,
Their sadness to us,
Maybe sometimes,
They'll throw their anger at us .
I admire those teachers who acted to be strong in front of us .

Other people,
Alot of people,
Like me,
Will also throw their anger and temper to other people,
I really hate it,
I really hate people doing it,
I'm trying to control it right now,
I'm trying to change myself .

Cik Suhaila,
I'm proud of you,
You tried hiding your sadness,
But I can see it through your face,
You tried so hard .

I really hate,
People acting like a baby and childish,
Over the limit,
Really like a baby,
It's really annoying .
You're older than me,
Please grow up .
I'm sick of you doing that,
Acting like that .

I shall stop here .
Bye .
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