Talk shit - editted .

I'm currently,
Not really happy,
I'm feeling down and sad,
With that sulky sour face,
I tried hiding it,
I tried pushing it away by playing some game,
But no,
It failed,
I can feel myself with that sulky sour face,
That lifeless weak type who doesnt have mood to play game but still plays with it .
How I wish that someone can really see that I was just faking it all the time,
And tell me,
"Stop pretending ."
And give me blahblah advices or whatever to waste time, cheer me up or entertain me .

Sad songs are definitely my type for now,
Pratically,
The song which is stuck in my mind now is,
On The Line - Demi Lovato & Jonas Brothers .

I didn’t wanna say, I’m sorry, for breaking us apart.
I didn’t wanna say, it was my fault, even though I knew it was.
I didn’t wanna call, you back, ‘cuz I knew that I was wrong.
Yeah I knew, I was wrong.

One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn’t lie.
But tonight, we’ll leave it on the line.

Listen baby.
Never would’ve said forever, if I knew we’d end so fast.
Why did you say, “I love you”, if you knew that it wouldn’t last?
Baby I just can’t hear what you’re saying.
The line is breaking up.
Or is that, just us?
Or is that just us?

One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn’t lie.
But tonight, we’ll leave it on the line.

Try to call again and get in your mailbox.
Like a letter left unread.
Apologies are often open ended,
but this one’s better left unsaid.

One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn’t lie.
But tonight, we’ll leave it on the line.
We’ll leave it on the line.
(Yeah, oh yeah)
We’ll leave it on the line tonight

This is a stupid thought but I wished I was somebody else but, no way .
I'll just live life to the max,

And the reason why I kept on having problem sleeping and paying attention in class is,
I kept on thinking about so many thoughts,
I feel like writing it on a book or just write it out here,
A journal or something,
Too many thoughts,
And what I type here is only little from it,
I'm trying to run to the front but I kept on looking behind,

Somehow,
I wish people could understand each other completely,
But no,
The reason why is,
Surprises,
We all love surprises,
People cant completely understand other people and they will do things that can be called something like surprises .
The weakness is,
You dont even know what that person really wants or what are they feeling,
Sometimes you cant just be so confident to yourself,
Too much confident can actually turn out to be wrong,
What we just can hope that you're actually doing something right,
It's alright to make mistakes coz we can just stand up and try again .
I know I'm talking nonsense here, but I'm currently writing what's on my mind .

Sometimes I just feel lost,
I just dont know what to do .

Sometimes I dont know what people are trying to do,
They be nice to you and suddenly they ditched you .
I really hate it,
I'm always being used,
I really had this friend who told me what type of people they were,
I found it true,
They are acting nice to you but actually their personality are ugly .

I was just living in my own world,

You came up to me and asked me,
Well,
I'm pretty much a good liar to lie,
I hid all the truth and told lies,
But my reason was,
I dont want you, or anyone to know .

What happen, it's already happened .
I cant do anything .

I dont know what to do,
I'm lost .
I almost reach up to the top to escape the darkness but I fell in deeper once again and I have to climb all the way up again,

School's later,
Finally,
Everyone will be there,
I can see you again .
Fill up the empty spaces, please .
I hope this isnt too much for you .
I hope that you are what I thought,
I hope I wasnt complaining too much,
or being too much or putting so much weight on you .

I really hate it that I cant type everything I thought here,
My heart; my thoughts,
I have to save the original want as a draft and edit this to post it up,
Because it was too much, for you .

I'm off to bed now,
Nights .